i miss her when she is around

My grandma came from Kuantan yesterday.
Its her monthly trip for her nose check-up.
Last year, she had an operation to remove a growth on her nose.
It was as big as a soy bean.
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Yesterday night,
Neither me nor my mother or grandma wants to sleep in my brother’s room.
Thus, three of us were sleeping on the same bed.
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I know im silly to squash together with my mom and grandma in one bed.
But i just loved the opportunity sleeping with both of them.
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Mom sleeping on my left and grandma on my right.
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They fall asleep quickly as they had traveled a three hour journey from Kuantan.
As I looked at them, a sense of warmth runs through my heart.
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Three generation sleeping on a bed.
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I wish this could happen more often and even better, everyday!
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As long as i had live, i had attended 1 burial.
It was more than a decade ago. The death of my eldest uncle due to lung cancer.
Although i was still young, i remembered clearly the night i saw my grandfather cried.
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Back then, i was too young to understand the feeling of someone leaving.
Now that i've grown up, i realised that its an unbearable pain.
It makes my tear drops imagining someone dear to be sick, what more past away.
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Last year, a shadow were found in the chest x-ray of my mom.
My heart sunk, when i knew about it.
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The thoughts of my mom leaving me makes me cry under the pillow for a few nights.
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One will never realised how much one owns, until one lose it.
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I never want to be in such situation.
I never want to realise, how much i'm gona miss my mom only when she's not around.
I want to miss her everyday NOW!