My Dream Book =D

Two weeks back i heard an ad from the radio. Its bout a guy who cycled all the way back from Los Angeles, California to Malaysia. At the beginning, i thought its just any other random ad from the radio but it wasn't, at least to me. There maybe some variation in the words but the content goes the same like this :

" Everyone wants to do something extraordinary, but the thought of doing it often lasted for a moment of time and the next thing before you know, you might have just forgotten the dreams that you have thought of"

This sentence really rings a bell in me, I'm sure everyone have some or at least one extraordinary thing (dream) that each of us want to achieve in life. I'm not sure how many you have, but i know i have quite a number of it. Dreams that I've been pondering. Dreams that i would want to achieve in my life. Dreams that i want to put into reality besides pondering. And one that i have, is to further my studies in UK in June 2009.

In my definition, dreams are something that we could place no where but in our memories. Dreams are something that make us no regret in the end of our life. Dreams are something that makes us smile when we recall them at old age. Dreams are something which we can tell others, "I've done it!!"

Some dreams maybe cheap. Some dreams are expensive. No matter what dreams it is, one thing for certain it always comes with a cost, be it in terms of monetary, physically or mentally. Probably, these cost are the essential recipe to make a dream worth achieving and drive us feeling proud in doing it.

I truly believe the most crucial element in achieving our dreams is the 1st step of it. And today, I've decided to start something new. My 1st step closer to my dreams. That is to start:
MY DREAM BOOK!



This would be a book that record all my dreams that i want to put into reality.
A book that would make me work hard and know why.




This is a birthday gift from Precious Moments. I used to write my thoughts in this book which most of it are bitter ones. But for now onwards, its still will be my thoughts that I'm going to write in, but this time it will be my thoughts of achieving dreams.



To the bin it goes for the bad memories.


Why keep the bad when there's plenty of good ones awaiting for me =)

Studies, Relationship and $$$

Emotions are complicated, it always come with a mixture.
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Be it felling happy and excited or depress and heart aching at the same time. .
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Its all hard to put into words, at least for now.

Just having toO many things to manage at the one time is never a good thing.
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Nevertheless, i must admit that the student like me may have just a few things to worry about.
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~studies, relationship, $$~
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Its enough to suck all the time and energy of mine

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1. STUDIES

If you ask me, being in Sabah fun?? Yes!! Of course it is.
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But coming back to college after 1 week of missing lecture and tutorial is never fun =(
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Presentations on 23/6
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Having assignments due on 24/6
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Advanced Taxation Mid-Sem Test on 27/6
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Hopefully I'll survive!
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I don't wish to repeat the same mistake i did in last semester, a bad downfall in my result due to laziness.
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It would be a shame for a scholarship holder not to have good results.
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Thus, i always agree that moderate level of pressure is a good catalyst for me to work!
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Pressure = Catalyst
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WAKE UP!!! WAKE UP!!! WAKE UP TO A BRAND NEW SEMESTER!!!!

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2.RELATIONSHIP

This is where its hard to put into words..

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God is amazing! The creator of heaven and earth.

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Creating creature like me with uncountable emotions.

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Happy~Sad~Excited~Depress~Nervous~Guilty~Hatred~Love~Jealous~Grumpy~Happy+Nervous~Guilty+Happy~Depress+Jealous

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Whatever the combination maybe, I'm just not sure of mine for you now.

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But there's one thing for certain, the feeling is never the same again ever since......

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I guess it as obvious as it is, even without this post.

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What should i do do now?? Or what should we do??

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Should we be mature and move on or salvage all we could??

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Perhaps, time will tell.

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3. $$$

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I'll leave this to me and my financial diary =D

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If i made it to UK next year, I'll be the proudest ever great saver!

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Sabah trip is a jumbo hole in the account. But i truly think its worth. NO COMPLAINS!

As happy as it seems to be?

When i take time to look around,

i realise i have but not many friends.

When i take a better look, i realise im all alone.

Sadness to whom i share?? Who will really TRULY care?

Not even the one closes.

i miss her when she is around

My grandma came from Kuantan yesterday.
Its her monthly trip for her nose check-up.
Last year, she had an operation to remove a growth on her nose.
It was as big as a soy bean.
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Yesterday night,
Neither me nor my mother or grandma wants to sleep in my brother’s room.
Thus, three of us were sleeping on the same bed.
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I know im silly to squash together with my mom and grandma in one bed.
But i just loved the opportunity sleeping with both of them.
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Mom sleeping on my left and grandma on my right.
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They fall asleep quickly as they had traveled a three hour journey from Kuantan.
As I looked at them, a sense of warmth runs through my heart.
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Three generation sleeping on a bed.
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I wish this could happen more often and even better, everyday!
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As long as i had live, i had attended 1 burial.
It was more than a decade ago. The death of my eldest uncle due to lung cancer.
Although i was still young, i remembered clearly the night i saw my grandfather cried.
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Back then, i was too young to understand the feeling of someone leaving.
Now that i've grown up, i realised that its an unbearable pain.
It makes my tear drops imagining someone dear to be sick, what more past away.
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Last year, a shadow were found in the chest x-ray of my mom.
My heart sunk, when i knew about it.
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The thoughts of my mom leaving me makes me cry under the pillow for a few nights.
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One will never realised how much one owns, until one lose it.
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I never want to be in such situation.
I never want to realise, how much i'm gona miss my mom only when she's not around.
I want to miss her everyday NOW!