making time out of no time

Distractions... There are so many of them in our life. We are so carried away in our everyday life, so busy rushing through a shower and heading to the road or stuck in the LRT. Cursing people who overtake without signaling, cursing the person next table who are smoking i'm having my meal, having client turning up in office demanding for docs without notifying ealier. Sometimes, its so hard for me to find time for myself which i hope i can. I just want to sit down and think, think and think of my life and future. How many of us actually take 5 mins a day just to reflect our daily happening? I guess very few of us do and that include me. This would be even more difficult for me now since i'm doing tutoring and insurance as well. Five days a week would all be work and work and no ponder ponder time. So from today onwards, I'll FIND TIME to do this. I'll make time everyday to think of the ways to improve myself, to do things better than what i did yesterday.
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The last time i have deep thoughts of my life was during my study leave. Those were the days i can lay on my bed and ponder on life. I don't call it day dreaming, because day dreaming has no direction and plan. I love to think of the future filled with hope and positive energy. I personally have a very strong feeling of success in me which i hope and want to nurture it to be reality. I believe that I'm more fortunate than many other people the same age as me. I have a great start in my school days that allow me the abilities to speak fluently, able to conduct a presentation without feeling afraid, to communicate and mixed well in a new environment. If not for my mom who sent me to the Big-Backside-Girls-School, i wouldn't be who i am today, a person with confidence. Thanks mom...
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Despite all the abovementioned, i must admit i'm a person with no patience. Time to time, i can easily be an angry cow. I dislike waiting for people, for me waiting for a person would mean not more than 15 mins. Else, i'll be very agitated and restless. And i have a serious problem with people who do not have the sense of urgency. This always happen in college days, when we're already late for class, Andy would still take his sweet time to walk. Most of the time, he'll be at the back and i'll be running to class. How i hate this and because of this, we had quite a few roll. Andy is a person filled with patience and this is his utmost quality and the reason we can be with each other for a good 4 years and counting. After some time from college years, Andy and i did ponder on how stupid we used to argue because of going late to classes, me being so angry bimbo every morning when we fail to leave the house early. We laughed over it now, and i start to question myself. Do i need to be such at such a situation and i realise the answer is no. I have to work out on this. I have to get a serious medication of push my patience up and my angry bimbo act down. Pls remind me to be patient if i lose them at times. If only i have more times to ponder to make myself realise all this and most importantly IMPROVE!!
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I WILL MAKE TIME TODAY AND EVERYDAY FROM TODAY ONWARDS!!

First was the Right, now my Left

My right feet was infected with eczema few weeks ago
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Initially, it was just a small crack which i assumed it to be an ordinary heel cracked.
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I happily bought Ellgy Cream to apply and the next i know, the crack turn into a 10cent wound and later to 20cent
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I went to my panel clinic twice and all i can say is~~ LOUSY DOCTORs

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The first doctor diagnosed the red spot on my feet,leg and hand as allergy reaction. Gave my some allergy cream to apply. After 1 week---not healed!

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Second visit to another clinic, the doctor diagnosed it as ringworm... cream applied

--STILL NOT HEAL!!

I have a feeling that, cause its panel clinic of my company and due to limit impose to the amount charged, the medicine and cream given is of those less effective, perhaps not effective at all.

Lesson: Don't visit panel if you're "really sick"

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Finally, i ended up in a skin specialist clinic, telling me its eczema and cost me RM185 @.@

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After seeing 2 doctors still like this.........
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Second days after seeing skin specialist
Applied permanganate liquid to prevent juices from oozing out the wound
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Phew.... wound healing...
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I did stupidly freak myself out thinking that the wound might be caused by some flesh eating bacteria. ~STUPIDITY~
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Anyway, i was relieve after seeing the 3rd doctor, the wound starts healing gradually. Thinking that FINALLY, i don't have to plaster my feet with white micropore tapes and cotton
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And what the heck next.....
I injured my left feet. I cant remember how i did it, all i recall was i ter-scrip my feet on my cupboard. With less receptor on this part of my feet and considering the thickness of the skin, it took me awhile to realise that blood is flowing out.


sigh...
its not as painful as you feel from seeing this photo
i still have time to snap a pic of it...

Ohhh my darling...

pls don't miss me too much.. I know its driving you crazy not being able to see me as often as you dream of me everynite. But i promise to make it up to you once you're back from across the straits okay

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I promise......

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I don't know what type of pasta you like the most and i can't be there to cook for you like you did on my birthday last year. So all i could do now for the time being is to shout here:

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HAPPY xxTH BIRTHDAY

TO

Miss CXC

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Well, i know the rule, i won't mentioned your age here as woman.... i mean girls don't talk bout age after XX years old. AGE, WEIGHT, SIZE are always a TABOO in case some of you guys don't know. I bet no gurls would like their size to be underestimated neither overestimated.
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Almost forget the standard procedure of "Birthday Greetings"
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Wishing you all happy go luck, smooth career path, may many blessings and prosperity awaits you and of course getting a good looking ehm.. ehm.. and wishing that you may

"ACHIEVE ALL THAT YOU WISH FOR"............

i know your wishes long ago >.<

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Jokes aside, i just didn't realise when we started being close..

But all i know is.... you're one good friend i'll keep close.

nothing to close when we took this photo

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bonding session begins without realising

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and NOW...

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i know you miss me everyday....